A PERFECT TIME TO CONTEMPLATE ON THINGS

Dear Friends,

Sunday it is! It is my time to share my thoughts again. 

Peace is elusive in this chaotic world. Crimes are spread everywhere like there's no safe place in this society of man. While crimes are scattered almost everywhere, dreams have been shattered. Where on earth shall we find peace? How can we make this change?

Has anyone ever told you that you are in complete peace? I, myself could not even think and say that I have encountered complete peace in this journey towards life. Random occasions have passed and I could not believe that peace is very hard to find. Well, I do not have the will to find peace right at this moment because of one reason - my purpose in this life is not clear to me. How to make it clear? It's up to me. 

While I am looking for better answers to life's big questions, I am also finding a lot of time to reflect on things. Things that are very hard to grasp. Things that I always question why they exist. Things that are most likely to be unbelievable. Life is not created to loiter around the corners of this world. It is not given to humans to put it to waste. It is given to humans because there's a lifetime purpose. That is where choice comes in. A choice to seek the purpose of life. That is why life came to existence - TO CONTEMPLATE ON THINGS. 

I have been through a lot of struggles as far as trying to free my mind from thinking of anything. The more I force myself to do the things I want, the more I fail myself to be good and do good. When dealing a lot of problems,  I always find time to read books, watch good movies, buy something for myself and/or eat a lot. When I am in doubt, I find myself listening to music or just walking along the street, sitting down and breathing some fresh air. That way, I will have a chance to free my mind from thinking. That way, I am aware of the big picture of what is happening to me. 

This I can tell you: When evil thrives, bad things will follow. I think people do not understand the value of life. If they do, good things will follow along the way. And if you would notice, good things will come your way without asking those beautiful things. The thing is, people are given a brain to think and decide and a heart to balance what you are thinking so you will be able to decide what is right. If you put them together, you will be able to find a perfect time to contemplate on certain things about yourself, life or anything that concerns you. You just don't know while you are taking seriously on things, you'll find love along the way. :)

I am looking for a place where I can live in complete peace. I hope someday I will have a chance to find my way there. :)

A Thought To Ponder: 

If you think that life is giving you a lot of horrible things that you can not do or things that are way beyond your control, remember that God is always next beside you waiting for you to call His Name. Believe me, it won't hurt your BIG EGO if you put your trust in Him. It will give you more strength to fight the biggest troubles in life and carry on. Moreover, your family and friends are your supporters in this whole journey. Take all the challenges as if you are just eating them and later on let them out. At the end of the day, it is who you think of while doing the best things in life. Always think this way; Time slips away and humans do not have the power to turn back time and while it keeps running, have some time to reflect on all the things you have done in this life. :)

Thanks for reading guys. Feel free to drop your comments. 

Wisdom: A God-Given Blessing

Good Afternoon!

A person who is being open-minded is equipped to have stupendous wisdom. Amazing people would say "Wisdom" involves being able to understand all sides of an issue without letting emotions or personal feelings get in the way. Nowadays, learning and understanding people are very broad to tackle. Each person has a life story to tell and each has its own mind to speak. But if one thoroughly examines his/herself, there might be a better way of understanding people in the long run.

I was able to meet people of different ages, faces, attitudes, dreams and all sort of things necessary to get to know a person. It's been 7 and a half months since I started doing this and here is what I found out. Before I speak my mind, I would let the other person speak first. Before I comment on a particular issue that a crowd is currently talking about, I must listen first. If I did not hear all the conversations, I might as well not to speak to avoid arguments. Before I say some things about someone, I will have to make it sure that I know myself well and that I am saying things well about myself. That way, they will never think twice whether or not I speak true to my words.

Well, maybe I still don't understand a lot of things about people like them why being bitchy is now circulated in this society. They let other people hear their big fat lies. They let other people think what they are saying is true and accurate. What if it's true then? My question is what do you get from it if all those things are true? And it's hard to understand these people who keep on murmuring if they could just bluntly tell those in front of my face. They're bluffing all along. I am just praying they won't get caught. I can sense fear running through their veins if that happens. I am thinking, they are just fed up about their own lives or they just want to taste a piece out of everything about anything. Poor little crap. Please grow up.

I am not mad at anybody. I just would like to share this to you. This is only to remind those manipulative bitches around the globe to stop what they are doing. They should know who they are. Lesson learned: It is not bad to talk to someone but be sure you get to know the person first before letting him/her into your life. You don't want to wake up one day and all of a sudden, you are being talked about by people you really don't know, right?

A signage for you to check your wisdom if it's still on track. :)

GOD ALWAYS TELLS US TO HELP ONE ANOTHER

God said, "YOU ARE NOT ALONE, YOU HAVE ME."

In this chaotic world where humans should be working hand in hand has been lost in the darkness for quite a very long time now. We always say things as if we do as we tell them to other people. Being blunt with the words we say is not bad at all. We must only take precautionary measures when it should be done. But sometimes, due to being blunt, we care less if we hurt someone and there's a diverse effect to the things we are doing. And therefore, people conflict on such things like they always do.

There have been a lot of scenarios where things go wrong and there have been a lot of people who contribute to make things even worse, Instead of putting things into order, they will definitely try to prolong whatever it takes for them to taste a piece of what is currently happening. And one day, worst things will happen.

And there's this bitch who says someone is being bitchy but I was really thinking, "Do you really think you're not being bitchy about yourself?"  Well, that's what a manipulative bitch does. I disgust those people who keep saying bad things about one another. Though it is not about me, I always think that one day or another these bitches will say some things behind my back as well.

Nowadays, I am really having a hard time trusting other people. But then again, I am always looking forward to having a poignant day in this entire journey. Being a positive thinker, I will always put good things into actions. But of course I have flaws, I tend to say things bluntly especially if I feel deprived of my rights to speak. Enough of that crap. haha.

Just to give you an update about the HOPES project I am currently engaging myself into, I am proud to say that I am one of those people who contribute to good things not only for myself but for other people. I love the way how things work for me because I have gained access to fully help other people. It is currently at work. I know that I am too slow in doing this project and making things happen but I am glad of its progress so far. I just want everything in place. Thank you Lord for the gift of wisdom. :)

Happy weekend Sunday guys. :)

HELPING OTHER PEOPLE EXCELS (HOPES)

Hi Everyone!

Let me start this blog by saying, "Good afternoon my dear friends!".

It had been 6 months since the last blog was posted. It is my honor today to let you know that I am truly embarking on a much deeper journey about something. Something that I never imagined of doing. Something that I could say, "UNUSUAL" for someone who does not know how to help.

A flash of light has come to remind me of my shortcomings in life. For quite a long time, I have never doubted myself when it comes to fulfilling my dreams. I never had a chance to thank those people personally for doing the most important things in my life. I do not want to include them from all the burdens I had come to carry in this life because these people are my precious possessions. Please accept my sincere apologies. You know who you are, "My Precious Jewels".

I deter myself from doing some things because of the sincere choice of seeking my purpose in life. It's good when people say they adore what I'm doing with my life because not all people could stand a chance of doing such a thing. But it took me a lot of brilliant ways to make myself realize that this life should ALWAYS be loved. It is something I call, "indurate" to think that I could maintain such discipline. Oh well, sometimes, I fell short of my expectations of being a good person. Despite of my shortcomings, God has always been there to comfort me and fill my heart with lessons needed to continue my journey towards life. If things go wrong, I always take time to keep myself in silence, sit down, breathe some fresh air, and later on contemplate on things. With zeal and courage, I know that God is always around to keep me safe.

Sometimes, I want to ask questions when I am in deep silence talking to God about the things I have never asked. "Why do you keep your faith in me?" "Why do you keep on showering me with endless blessings without me asking for it?" These questions are really keeping my heart melt. When I am in so much trouble, God is always there to lend a helping hand. So, why in this world would I not help other people in need? After all, I was given this life to help other people in great need. And that is already in progress. I hope that all my plans would come true.

Helping other people is "maybe" the purpose I am seeking in this life. People become more and more insensitive to the needs of other people around them and I could see loathsome and imbecile expressions running through their faces when they see beggars on the street. And what's worse, nowadays, they pay no attention to their surroundings anymore. What a sad reality. I still hope that there are good people out there who would definitely come to help and continue to help the needy. I will be including myself on the list in the near future. However, I will be needing more help from you guys. Please spread the good news. We can definitely help other people by simply doing an ARK(Act of Random Kindness). I thank God for this opportunity to help. I really do. And sure you can, too. :)

You can drop any of your concerns to my email - mfstaana@yahoo.com.ph or maynardstaana@yahoo.com. :)

THE HEART THAT FOLLOWS ONE'S DREAMS

Hello everyone! It's weekend and it's time for me to post this blog. :)

If only I have wings to fly, I could have flown like the pollen grains from a flower and live in a place where I could marvel at things. But reality speaks for me that whatever I do, things just happen for some reasons humankind can no longer explain. I would just have to deal with life, its mysteries and what it has to offer me because the moment I was raised from my mother's womb, learned the ABCs, went to school, and now working, it is what I call "curiosity" - "People expect great things from you", just like Mr. Olivander from Harry Potter had said.

I have been living up to my family's expectations. What they don't know is, I have been trying to become what they would like me to become. They always expect me to do great and good things. I sincerely appreciate the idea that my family is expecting me to become a very witty and intelligent person which I am proud to say I did. Logically speaking, a person is always expected to do good and rightful things. But the thing is, "why do I feel so much emptiness after doing such things?". Have I not been recognized for all my efforts? Have I not been genuinely appreciated? Or maybe, just maybe, I have not lived out to my own expectations. I guess not; I just hope so.

For Nth time, my family is always at my back whenever I need them. Through my ups and downs, they keep my afloat in this entire journey. Glad to have my mother because she is my number one supporter and provider in this so-called life. I was able to witness how she was able to raise me up as a well-groomed entity and bring pleasure in my heart with all the things that she did for me. In my life, she had been there; She is always there and she will always be there no matter how painful I treated this borrowed life.

I am so much filled with love but I was not able to realize at that point in time when I did not know what life was all about. If I will be given a chance to sacrifice my own life by giving it to somebody else, I will definitely give it to my mom. The love is so unconditional and it's like a masterpiece in a book that could never be rewritten. There are two things that I want to stress out. First is to follow one's dream while doing the rightful things. Second is, to give our parents the benefit of what sons and daughters should be. They would be happy to see how their sons and daughter are doing in their lives right now.

A THOUGHT FOR REFLECTION:
It is very important to follow your heart in the course of following your dreams but you must learn to use the power of your mind because it might trigger your downfall and it will be a very long process of recovery when you lose yourself in the process of following some irrelevant things that are not meant to happen. Learn to think not only twice but a thousand times before making such decisions in life; Being regretful will never help you. It will just continue to let you down. Come to think of it, it will just add up to your headaches. Be sure to weigh things and by doing so, you are thinking the best possible way on how to find your purpose in life - GENUINE HAPPINESS. :)

Thanks for reading my blog. Until next time. :)

MY THOUGHTS & FEELINGS: SEARCHING FOR ONESELF: ITS LIFETIME PURPOSE

MY THOUGHTS & FEELINGS: SEARCHING FOR ONESELF: ITS LIFETIME PURPOSE: Good Morning! I was 9 years old when I started feeling weird about my life doing different things comparatively to others. I did my assi...

SEARCHING FOR ONESELF: ITS LIFETIME PURPOSE

Good Morning!

I was 9 years old when I started feeling weird about my life doing different things comparatively to others. I did my assignments (except for drawing ones) on my own, I spoke for myself, I stroved for excellence. I talked to people if needed and I never tried cheating that includes assignments and examinations. In short, I am not that friendly and kinda loner. I always choose my friends. I might be talking to you nicely but befriending someone is entirely out of the picture.

When I felt that weird kind of thing, I felt the need to continue doing it. I knew at that point, a lot of people would hate me and worst curse me for being so indifferent. I already accepted that fact because I know I could not please everyone. The moment I stood up in front of them being different is already something I can say am proud of. Those moments of triumph and laugh are considered to be one of my strengths to continue life. But sometimes, it is not all about triumphs and laughs, there are failures, bereavement, fears, pains and tears. When my father had left us, my family is never complete. He was diagnosed with cancer. There was a glimpse of hope for my father because he had lived more than what the doctors had predicted. But then again, he stopped medication when he felt stronger that we never thought it would come back. I felt deprivation of my rights to continue seeing my father. What I thought was, I never doubted God's plans for me and I never asked him why He had let my father die at my early age of 14. It was really hard for me knowing that we were not that close but it was my mother who felt the hardest way on how to carry on. I have seen how she cried many times, how she had loved my father, how that bereavement cause her a lot of pains. Though life at that point was miserable, she stood for what was right. She continued what was supposed to be done and that is to be strong for us. I am glad God gave them to me as my parents. This was the start of my quest to search my own life's purpose.

I did not know where to start with, how to deal with less important things and how to deliver a well-rounded life amidst problems being faced at that point in time. There were a lot of times in this life that I thought I would give up. It was that time after my father's death that I felt like I did not need to eat a lot. So, I had ulcer and took medication for like a month or two. Due to my father's death, I forgot to focus on my studies. I forgot that I had a life to care for. The thing is, I was haunted by the fact that I never gave myself a chance to be so close to my father. There were instances of failing some of my subjects when I was in Junior Year. And because of being preoccupied of my loss, there were a lot of tardiness in school. There were even a point that my mother had to go in school to talk to our school principal because of tardiness. My mother called my attention about it and she knew what I was going through. Instead of acting like an angry mother, she showed me mercy by talking things over. And we got things going. From then on, things went great as if nothing happened. I was able to pass my Junior Year and I had promised one thing to myself - "I will do my best and will make my own mark.". My senior year was my best year in high school getting a lot of recognition from my classmates, professors and mentors. New doors were opened for me to become who I wanted to be. And I succeeded in making my dream come true - "To Be The Best That I Can Be".

The quest for searching is now onboard. College was my epicenter of success as far as schooling is concerned. Thanks to all my mentors and professors in high school who made me feel special in my own way. They never doubted that I could become someone as witty as anybody else. I outsmarted my classmates in various aspects and I finished in Dean's List on my first and second years in college. On my Junior and Senior years, I was no longer part of the Dean's list elite students because I focused more on taking summer subjects. I was predicted to finish Cum Laude but due to bad circumstances, I wasn't able to fight for what was due for me. I had let them ruin my dream at that point in time. But of course, I should never put all the blame to them. What I should have asked by then was, "What have I done wrong?". The momentum was almost there but it was altered right at that very moment of trial. I felt like I was persecuted that I was deprived of my right to become happy and tell the world that I can truly become one great person in my own way. Some of my true friends were there to console me. I did my best to fight for my right but it was not enough. I did not fight till the very end. I am glad I was able to try though. I am glad to prove myself one good reason to smile - "God is always there guiding me wherever I am and whenever I need Him.".

Can you imagine life without love? I could when I was passing through the challenges I have had in my entire journey of education life. I knew for a fact at that early stage of my life that love is only given solely to my family and friends. Love for a special someone is the last resort I had in mind while taking that journey. I was up to the challenges and I had no time to think of love because I forsee love as something that you should not only feel but your other half; And that is the person that you're going to love.

I struggled myself finding myself a job; A job that I could call mine. I mean a job that is worth of my time. It took me a year to finally find a job. And the feeling of having one is like being in love in its own concept. The immeasurable thing that could happen while being in love with your job is the time when you learn to dislike what you're doing. I had 5 jobs so far in this life. And I think I am on the edge of losing the chance of finding myself to what I call, "Happiness". So, before this thing is gone, I told myself, "I wanna go to a place where I could marvel at some things. A peaceful place I never got the chance to go to." This need of fulfilling the search for myself and my happiness and it's lifetime purpose in this life is what I have been dying to do. It's just that I never had a chance to make it happen. I have been trying a lot of way to make this thing happens in some alternative ways. It did make sense but along the way, some weird things happen that I felt like it's not really what I wanted in this life. I also felt like, I am just wasting my time doing irrelevant things. So before this life ends, I want to know my purpose in this life by means of searching myself first. Eventually, when I have found myself. Next thing is, Hello Happiness and Peaceful Life. While finding myself and my purpose in this world, the need of self divination is the most important thing for me. Without this being fulfilled, I would never find the happines that I deserve.

One day, I came across to this masterpiece by Elizabeth Gilbert, "EAT PRAY LOVE". I was able to read and understand the concept of the book. Somehow, we had something in common. Something that we want to find before the thing called, "Happiness" can be found. Some kind of a missing piece in me that I want to find that is way I am so filled with this thing to go on a journey and find myself. I can not differentiate what's right from wrong because of the fact that I am after for something that would benefit me as a person. The need to find myself is a feeling to be done. I do not want to be alone for more years. I do not want to live in misery crying each night because of unfulfilled vow. And most especially, I do not want to die without searching and finding my purpose in this so-called "LIFE".

Life is always telling me to do the right things. I am glad that I was able to grab this life and have the chance to love it. I was given this life to protect it from any kind of harm and to have it shielded from someone who wants to destroy it. The decision of a person speaks of who and what he/she is. It also speaks to him/her whether he/she loves the life that was given to him/her. How would someone say, he/she loves his life, if all the while, he/she smokes, drinks liquor, spends more of his/her time wasted. How would someone speaks about the love he/she has for life if he/she is busy doing worldly things. You know what I mean? How would someone possibly believes someone says he/she loves his/her life if he/she is taught of wrong things in the first place. See how it manages to destroy life if people are busy doing their own nasty things. They always believe that what they are doing is right for them. They were not told that what they were busy doing was immature and completely unacceptable. If you value your life just what you have always been saying, then speak for yourself. Do what is right and preach what you do. By then, God will guide you in preaching how to love life.

Life is giving me a roller-coaster ride thing from time to time especially when I am doing such irrelevant things. I am always stumbled to problems uneasy to face. And what worse, I break down in misery. I learned each day with all the things that are happening around me. I guard my own life. I value this life because God has given me a lot of chance to be happy amidst problems and failures in life itself. Share your life in its own essence and please make sure that you do the right things. It is not bad to do the things we want but we should set our limitations to what we do.

The search is not yet over. I will never find the happiness unless I am able to find myself. I will not give up life even though it takes me a lifetime to search for myself. I will always have the heart to understand what is happening with my life. Understanding the mysteries of life will help you understand the true meaning of it. I have the spirit and blessings of God to guide me in this so-called life. Thanks for reading. Love lots. :)